Monday, November 16, 2015

Happy Aches

That's what I have right now. I got my (expanding) behind back to the gym today. It's been three months since I broke my foot and I've had enough waiting around for it. It has got to the point where I could see all the gains I'd made earlier in the year start disappearing. Not to mention all those niggly aches and pains I get from sitting around are beginning to creep back.

I saw this article in The Grauniad over the weekend about Ronda Rousey with this great quote that stayed with me.

Listen, just because my body was developed for a purpose other than fucking millionaires doesn’t mean it’s masculine ... I think it’s femininely bad-ass as fuck, because there not a single muscle in my body that isn’t used for a purpose, because I’m not a do-nothing bitch.

I got to thinking that while I am far more active in my daily life than I have ever been, it's not enough. The days of me being a do-nothing bitch ended about three years ago. Mornings still aren't my friend, but I can't remember the last time I slept in past 9 o'clock. Even when I have days which aren't that productive, when I stop to think about what I've done, the list is longer than I first realise.

The fact of the matter is it's a start, now I've got to get back on the horse and carry on. I've got things to do that won't happen unless I am fitter and stronger. I am happier when I exercise regularly, I sleep better and I'm emotionally more robust and less inclined to hormonal breakdowns. 

The last couple of weeks have been a bit tough for quite a few reasons, some of which have been beyond my control, but it's given me time to think and re-evaluate my personal aims and objectives. I put on my Big Girl Pants and filed my tax return. I took solid steps to improve my finances and I've continued to add words to my manuscript. 

Looking at my work in progress, it's not bad. Already I can see changes that must be made. I changed the way I work. Rather than try editing as I go, I focus on getting the words out. "This is my first draft of my first book" is the mantra I start with every session. Wanting to write the best book I could possibly write undermined my previous efforts and left me rocking in a corner. This is the first book, I've never written a book before. Of course, it's a steep learning curve, but only one I'll ever be able to climb by writing over it; writing through it. 

I can see the shape of my life gradually coming into focus, for the first time in a long time. Things are beginning to slot into shape. I have a better idea of how to go about getting what I want. In other words, it's all good people. It's not easy, but it's still good.

6 comments:

  1. Anonymous9:47 pm

    ... goodness ... no more dressing gown ... I just came by to ask you about your novel, because I saw on another blog (a glimpse) that it is week three of this nanowriwhateverthing. Write, write as you never wrote before !
    I do not get entirely what you cite up there, only something about badassfuck & stuff, so I do not look into it further - if it's motivating, whatever makes one going is basically good. Damage-control is for the weak.

    BTW there was one American author (whose name I forgot) who prepared for writing with a boxing excercise. He needed to be in good shape to sit and hammer out words, ruining his type writer, but anyway the physical fitness ("mens sana in corpore sano") seems to be an integral part of the writing process.
    For some at least.
    For me it's Silvaner, silence and a deadline.
    Add some tabacco.

    Good luck with all that focusing, I hope you see the real thing. For you.

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    1. The MS (manuscript) is slowly, slowly. I'm not going to make the NaNoWriMo target, but as long as it's done by the end of the year, I will be happy.

      I find it very tiring writing, and when I get into the zone, when I stop my shoulders and neck can get really sore. The exercise stops that happening as I'm stretching everything out.

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  2. inspiration, my love! that is what you are! i know my knee will only "get better" if i DO something, instead of giving into the vicious cycle of pain! thank you! hitting the mat NOW (even if it's almost 10pm!) xoxoxooxx

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    1. Come on lovely, get you moving gently along! :)

      We'll get there.

      We can pause along the way, but no stopping! xxxxx

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  3. Have you done your exercises today?

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    1. No. Not yet. But I am out of bed!

      Exercise and writing - seems like the way forward. Good luck, Roses!

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