Decisions Decisions

Yesterday, went reasonably well. I did lots of reading, watched the Motorcycle Diaries again, made notes and actually got as far as beginning my introduction. So it has been progress of a sort. I can't say I'm pleased with what I've done, because there isn't enough output, but it's a start.

You will have noticed the change in title. That stems from some news, which I was aware of just before Christmas but denial never works for too long. P, my step-father, is seriously ill. It is the dreaded 'C' word and today he is undergoing a biopsy to discover what flavour it is. My brother, Atlas, has asked that I fly back to Trinidad no later than the end of January. If it is the more aggressive form, then I will need to make travel arrangments in terms of days, rather than weeks. But at the moment, we are all acting on the assumption that Boy and I will be flying out later.

I have some decisions to make. Do I try to write my dissertation, get it out the way as soon as possible and try and complete my degree this year? Or do I just say, I have other things to think about at this time, and take a year out. Complete my degree next year? Last night I thought it would be better to take a year, this morning looking at my pile of books, I'm thinking I ought to press ahead. I don't know at this stage. I'm not going to be able to speak to my lecturers until next week Thursday and P's results wont be in until possibly Friday.

How am I otherwise? Well, I'm trying not to think about it. My mother died about 2 and a half years ago, so although I'm still fairly raw, I know the process. At this point, I've just slammed the door on the emotion and I'm focussing on creating my To Do List. Hopefully, I will be able to blog while I'm abroad, so you won't get rid of me that easy. The rest of it, we will see.