Ladies and Gentlemen, I have dusted off my New Year's Resolutions. I've given them a quick polishing and here: look how shiny they are!
I am nicotine free, I am meditating regularly and today I've started exercising again.
How pleased am I? Very. It feels great, doing good stuff. I'm enjoying the sensation very much. Life is indeed good.
I've managed to totally freak Boy out today. I ironed 3 of my shirts and 2 of his. Now, close personal friends of mine will remember I don't iron. I only bought the iron and ironing board on the off-chance Hottie might want to use when she came to stay. Both live in Boy's room. He uses it. I haven't. In fact, I'm pretty sure that today was the first time I've used that iron. Boy keeps feeling my forehead. But the shirts look much better ironed and the chances of getting Boy to do it were minimal. Rather than fuck about with it any more, I ironed.
It's quite amazing really, I got more energy, I'm more productive around the house, I'm content in my head. Hard to imagine, but all of this came from me standing outside, smoking alone, contemplating the retreating year of 2010. I have a note stuck on my board that says 'Stop Thinking About it! Do it!' That was over five months ago now. Good grief! How much time has slipped by. How many things have changed. How many things are thankfully still the same.
On Tuesday, I will be celebrating my 41st birthday. Did I think, when I celebrated my 40th, this would be my Life now? No, not really. I had no idea. I feel a shiver of anticipation when I consider the year ahead. What other changes will happen? I know my braces will be coming off and I'll finally have my Hollywood Smile. I'm really looking forward to the next few months at work, it's going to be exciting times. I'm going to work my butt off and I'm looking forward to the rewards of the hard work. Towards the end of November Boy will turn 18. He will be an adult. Able to vote, get credit, continue in education, get a job. As he takes his place in civil society, I'm still amazed at the wonderful person I had a hand in creating and guiding.
This last year I learnt to enjoy my own company. I learnt to value the silence. Will I find love and companionship this year? Don't know. The Universe may or may not have plans for my love life this year. Until then, I'll be dancing one step at a time, smiling and feeling good for no reason at all.
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I'm so pleased for you. I've yet to keep myself to any of mine.
ReplyDeleteAlthough I did push myself out of my safety zone a few times over the past few weeks and had more uhm relations than all of last year which quite frankly doesn't say much.
cyberpete ~ I suppose I've just not given up on them. They are work-in-progress rather than end goals. Looking at them like that has meant when I've slipped up, fallen straight off or just not done it, I've been able to shrug my shoulder, get up and try again.
ReplyDeleteStop being so selfish with yourself - spread your fabulousness around honey. Go have a good time.
I made the decision a few years ago to enjoy every minute that I could. I was very low and pessimistic at the time, so I needed every bit of happiness I could muster. Actually, blogging was part of it. I know just when I realised that I had come out of the dark place and I've been happy ever since. Just Do It works for everything - the "one day..." things and those you dread, which usually aren't that bad once you've faced up to them.
ReplyDeletez ~ exactly that. Moments of pleasure can be found in the most mundane of places.
ReplyDeleteI realise that's why I love reading your blog. It's like you take pictures of your moments of pleasure for us, but in words (occasionally in pictures). Wow. A light bulb moment.
The bantams demanding elevenses; the Sage being sage-like in the way he finds 10,000 different ways to show you he loves you, and you seeing it; your family; your friends. The pleasure you get from cooking the vegetables you grow from seed.
Such a rich life and you share it with us so generously. You are one of my blessings.