Happy Aches

That's what I have right now. I got my (expanding) behind back to the gym today. It's been three months since I broke my foot and I've had enough waiting around for it. It has got to the point where I could see all the gains I'd made earlier in the year start disappearing. Not to mention all those niggly aches and pains I get from sitting around are beginning to creep back.

I saw this article in The Grauniad over the weekend about Ronda Rousey with this great quote that stayed with me.

Listen, just because my body was developed for a purpose other than fucking millionaires doesn’t mean it’s masculine ... I think it’s femininely bad-ass as fuck, because there not a single muscle in my body that isn’t used for a purpose, because I’m not a do-nothing bitch.

I got to thinking that while I am far more active in my daily life than I have ever been, it's not enough. The days of me being a do-nothing bitch ended about three years ago. Mornings still aren't my friend, but I can't remember the last time I slept in past 9 o'clock. Even when I have days which aren't that productive, when I stop to think about what I've done, the list is longer than I first realise.

The fact of the matter is it's a start, now I've got to get back on the horse and carry on. I've got things to do that won't happen unless I am fitter and stronger. I am happier when I exercise regularly, I sleep better and I'm emotionally more robust and less inclined to hormonal breakdowns. 

The last couple of weeks have been a bit tough for quite a few reasons, some of which have been beyond my control, but it's given me time to think and re-evaluate my personal aims and objectives. I put on my Big Girl Pants and filed my tax return. I took solid steps to improve my finances and I've continued to add words to my manuscript. 

Looking at my work in progress, it's not bad. Already I can see changes that must be made. I changed the way I work. Rather than try editing as I go, I focus on getting the words out. "This is my first draft of my first book" is the mantra I start with every session. Wanting to write the best book I could possibly write undermined my previous efforts and left me rocking in a corner. This is the first book, I've never written a book before. Of course, it's a steep learning curve, but only one I'll ever be able to climb by writing over it; writing through it. 

I can see the shape of my life gradually coming into focus, for the first time in a long time. Things are beginning to slot into shape. I have a better idea of how to go about getting what I want. In other words, it's all good people. It's not easy, but it's still good.