Tuesday, January 17, 2012

Remember Me?

I used to blog here loads? Bore you senseless with my tales of woe? Is it coming back to you?

Yeah, well, I've been a bit busy. Instead of blogging about the kind of Life I'd like to lead, I've been leading the Life, I'd like to have time to blog about. I confess that a lot of it, I blame on Lawrence. We've been going out to see loads of small, live gigs. I might be wrong, but I think he worked out that we saw about 8 acts in about 7 days. It isn't unusual that we spend more on drinks than on tickets for the gigs (before you say, we usually have a couple of bottles of fruit juice or if we're being extravagant a bottle of beer for him, bottle of beer for me to last us most of the evening). Norwich is an awesome place to live; to be able to see so many great musicians for not a lot of money, well to me that's Epic Winning.

I am also currently flat out at work. This Friday is our annual Vision Day, when our directors lay out their Plans for World Domination. It is going to be an awesome day. In the meantime, I am busy, busy, busy. This weekend I will be clambering into my pyjamas and it's going to take something special or important to get me out of them; I've got books to read, DVDs to watch and a sofa that has been pining for me.

My own Plans for World Domination have had to wait as I've tried to get the other things done, but that's okay, I will be taking a few days off at the end of the month to get things back on track. I've got a weekend course to write and other plotting to put into motion.

Of course my IT issues are still unresolved. The insurance company's technical IT experts looked at my laptop and basically sucked their teeth. When I bought it, I seriously specked it out and they can't pull an equivalent off the shelf at Currys or PC World. This suits me just fine. It means I get another Dell, which I prefer. Before all the teckie people out there start pelting me with buns and tell me how awful Dells are and that there are cheaper models out there...I'm perfectly aware of this, I like them. It's what I want. No one ever got fired for buying Dell and they are fine for  what I want...and they don't fall over because their components are cheap and poorly assembled. I reckon it's going to be at least another 2-3 weeks before the new laptop is sat on this desk. I just need to continue to be patient with my ancient PC, which is doing it's damnedest to cope with all this high falutin, modern shite.

Apart from that, I continue to adhere to my New Year's resolution: listen to my inner wisdom and follow through. It's going well. I'm still smoke free. I can't say I've started to move my wobbly butt yet, but it will happen. I've been cooking more and eating better. Though I'm taking enough multi-vitamins, mineral and other supplements to rattle like a rain stick in the morning. I'm not sure how effective it's all been, except I'm much poorer and my urine is almost florescent, which is nothing if not entertaining in the middle of the night.

So, it's all good here, if busy and knackering and fun. I will do my best to try to visit and blog more. I miss you guys. xxx

Sunday, January 08, 2012

2012 - The Year of the Water Dragon

According to the Chinese, 2012-2013 will be the Year of the Dragon, in Water. The dragon, in Chinese mythology, is associated with power, success and wealth. In its water aspect it brings about great changes. It is a supernatural being.

I've been spending a great deal of time thinking and day dreaming about the year ahead and the Life I want to lead, as far as my economic activities are concerned. Last year, the other aspects of my life began to really slot into place as I got my head together.

Last year my resolution was to Stop Thinking About It - Do It. This year, I am Listening to my Inner Wisdom and Following Through.

This year will be about: healing, re-aligning my internal chemistry (life without nicotine), moving more, getting my NLP Practice off the ground. This is the year it's all going to be happening; so watch this space!

Monday, January 02, 2012

2011, The Year that Was...

going to be 'Stop Thinking About It, DO IT'.

That was my only resolution. But within that, I started exercising, gave up smoking several times, stopped exercising and kept smoking.

Do I feel a failure about it? No, not really. Because when I chose that resolution, I just wanted to get moving again. I wanted to have a Life. Rather than sitting 24/7 at my laptop, I wanted to do stuff. And it didn't matter if I didn't follow through, I just wanted to have a go.

Have a go, I certainly did. I became an NLP Practitioner and dragged my Boy in after me. If I thought it, I aimed to do it.

So, what was 2011 like? Well, painful and stressful immediately come to mind. It was the first year after my dad died, which was never going to be fun. I was working in two places, and then in March, I started doing 4 days a week at the financial services. I'm glad I made the move. I have learnt an awful lot. I work with and for fantastic people. And it means I write. It seems that it doesn't matter what I write, as long as I write. If I don't, I become totally crazy (as opposed to partially crazy).

This was the year when things began to make more sense to me. I began to understand the role that values play in mine and other peoples' lives. And quite simply, I began to see why some things work and don't work in this context. This in return made for quite an interesting time as far as my love-life was concerned.

Looking back on it, I can't ever think of a time when my love-life has ever been so active. Truly. Things kicked off with the German, end of April and I kicked him to the curb in middle of May. Thinking back on it, in terms of values, he was unkind and miserly, both emotionally and physically and he didn't respect me. Then there was the Surgeon, who could have been lovely, if only he wasn't so wounded. After he stood me up, I decided that really wasn't good enough, I did invite him to remain friends which he never took me up on. And I didn't miss him anyway. In between M. le Frog, hopped in and out creating havoc in my heart. And then there was Northern Bloke...ah yes. We met on FB after the riots, we met physically twice. Perhaps the most 'interesting' of my encounters, especially looking at his values. Which I never saw. They were shrouded in the nice words he thought he should say. His definitions were never fully-formed or indeed, transparent. Interesting considering he's in a similar line of work to my mentor. This should have ensured we'd share common ground, values and interests. Nope. Didn't mean bugger all. He thought he was up to the task of challenging my reality. It still rankles slightly, and just goes to show how arrogant I am, what annoys me is that he thought he could take me on. I have two degrees and I'm an NLP Practitioner *and* he thought he could bend me to his will? Really? Eejit. M. le Frog hopped in and then finally, completely out of my heart.

Because, the week before I went down to London, to meet Northern Bloke, I'd made a new friend. Lawrence and I became partners-in-crime. We'd go to gigs, go on walks, go to dinner, hang out. It was a friendship that meant so much to me. Slowly, slowly, it grew into something more. 

So, that's got to be one of the biggest changes of 2011. 

What does 2012 have in store? Who can say? According to the Mayans, this year the apocalypse begins. I'm just waiting for the exact date so I can stop paying my credit card.

Anyway, in all seriousness now. Given the success of last year's, and I do count it a success, I've decided I will listen to my inner wisdom. Sounds easy, doesn't it?

Hah. Shows what you know.

My inner wisdom is telling me that there are big changes to be made this year. I stopped smoking midnight, my body is making it damn clear it won't tolerate it for much longer. I am also aware that my body needs to move more. There's the small matter of my finances to sort out. My stress levels to attend to...yeah, I think I've got enough to be getting on with at the moment.